{BabyLove}- what's going on in 3rd tri?

Lemme just start off with a beautiful cliche disclaimer: Pregnancy is a beautiful thing. To know life is growing inside of you is amazing and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world right now.

Now that that's out of the way.... I'll say it. I'm over it. I'm approaching 30 weeks in a couple days and I want this kid out (not really I want him to be as healthy as possible when he's born)!!! Who told me I could do this?! I'm not built for this! LOL. Pregnancy does so much to your body that NO amount of reading can prepare you for. Thank God for YouTube! If I didn't learn so much from there, my doctor would block my number from the amount of times I call her to make sure something is normal. 

I am now in the glorious third trimester of pregnancy where everything just seems to get bigger by the day. And by everything... I mean none of the important things that they tell you will get bigger. Like where are these great boobs I was supposed to get? Whomp! BabyLove is literally taking everything and I am ALL belly. I don't mind because I love him to pieces and I know he needs everything he can get but geesh... A little boob never hurt anyone! LMAO. Before pregnancy I was 100 pounds... At almost 29 weeks I was 121! Sounds like nothing to some people but when you're used to being THAT tiny all of your adult life... I feel like I'm doing a never ending gym workout. And don't get me started on breathing! I actually went to triage at the hospital two weeks ago because this baby is SO big and I am SO tiny that he's literally squishing my lungs and making it hard for me to catch my breath even laying down (I also can't get too full because then the pressure from my stomach PLUS baby take up too much space in there)! I was worried about the amount of oxygen he was getting but of course the little brat was fine in there! But breathing is an everyday struggle that I still sometimes panic about because I have a history of asthma and you never forget the feeling of not being able to catch your breath. 

All in all though OTHER than not being able to breathe and wondering where my boobs are.. I'm thankful to God that I've had an easy pregnancy. I have nothing to complain about (though hormones always help me find something) and I'm just anxiously awaiting the little prince's arrival and mentally preparing for motherhood. 

Life huh? 

Midweek Inspiration + A Letter to my Son

via Google Images

My sweet baby,

I can't believe you're almost here! I've carried you for 25 weeks and a few days now which means I'll get to see you in about 3 months. You're due November 10th but I have a feeling you'll be an October baby (I want to call it intuition.. though it could just be my anxiousness to meet you) and I can't wait until you're here and we can start this next phase of life together. You have already helped me grow so much as a person and I know our experience will make me that much better; of this I am determined. 

There isn't an hour that goes by that I don't think about you or wonder how you're doing in there. You probably know this already cause I'm constantly wiggling you around to make sure you're ok. That's my job as your mommy. To make sure that you are always safe. I already wish I could keep you protected from this crazy world forever....tuck you away somewhere... but that wouldn't be fair to you. Life's experiences are what's going to make you and sometimes it's going to be hard, but I'm always going to be here to motivate you, to wipe your tears, and to make it a little easier. I pray everyday that I can fill your childhood with happy memories and that you don't feel the stress or worries of adult life much too soon. 

You're going to be spoiled.There's no doubt in my mind. So many people love you already and it's amazing to be surrounded by such supportive people. Family is important and I hope you always keep that in the forefront of your mind. No one will love you as much as we do. Your mommy, daddy, grandparents, aunts and uncles... we all can't wait to see you and watch you grow up. It's almost like you're every one's first baby. Family also isn't perfect but I hope that you always remember that while you may have differences, God doesn't make mistakes and your family is yours forever. They are a little cray cray..... but you'll love them just the same. 

I have such high hopes for you. I hope you'll be a mommas boy (your daddy's hoping otherwise). I hope you have your daddy's passion and his drive because when he feels strongly about something nothing stands in his way. I hope you don't get either of our stubbornness but that's definitely wishful thinking!! LOL. But mostly I hope you never feel cheated or short of our love. You couldn't even begin to imagine how much you are wanted, anticipated and loved already. 

Xoxo, 

Mommy

BabyLove: Anatomy Scan

I cannot believe that by the time Monday comes I will be halfway done with this pregnancy! It sucks that I started a new blog so late because now you guys only get to hear about it halfway but I had a fairly uneventful pregnancy either way. I had started doing bumpdates on my old blog but my bump at the time didn't seem like it was changing that much and neither were my symptoms.. so it felt kind of redundant.

Anywho, I had my anatomy scan today and I was super anxious/excited for it all day! I'm happy to report (praise God) that the doctor said everything looks amazing and the baby is beautiful! =). He does weigh a pound already which from looking at my "What to Expect" app seems like its huge because they have the average weight as half a pound. I keep thinking about how the heck I'm supposed to push him out if hes almost 10 pounds by the time this is over because I was 5'1 and like 100 pounds when this all began so suuuuper tiny! I'm just happy that he's healthy and all is looking amazing!

If you follow me on Instagram then you've seen that I posted a picture up of him already but I'm going to re-share it anyway. And a few more. This may be the only time I get 3d pictures of him also so I was HYPE about that! haha.

She tried to get him to move his hands for like 5 minutes but he was NOT having it. He's also a very active baby so it took about 45 minutes for her to make sure she got all the measurements she needed cause he kept moving away from the ultrasound wand! LOL. Either way I still love his pictures and think he looks adorable! Mothers love? Lol. 

xoxo,

Tanay